By the time you read this post, its probably the 10th draft. Just like my turning 30 post, not really sure where I am heading with this post … but its to share and serve as a reminder to myself for the future.
July has been interesting. I realized some things that I never really had to deal with before. A month where instead of giving advice and consultation, I find myself seeking advice from the people close to me. This month has been a good reminder that no matter how strong or successful we are, our own …. or in this case, my own strengths can backfire. A friend of mine warned me about this not so long ago and yeah, she was right!
I know what I want in life. I know what are the things I value most. Irony is that at times my actions or image do not portray these things.
I dont consider myself famous nor do I want to be. I wrote about this 3 yrs back but again fame has never been a craving of mine. Never will be. I want and live a simple life. Generally I dont care too about what strangers think about me. I can’t please the world and dont try to but when a person I care about is influenced by these “opinions”, it is harder to digest – lagi2 if I have no control over them. If that is the price of fame than I dont need it.
Talking about control. I am very good at controlling myself – my health, my career .. my life. Control gives me stability … but was reminded this month that I can’t control everything. Rather than trying to control the situation, I must learn to take a step back no matter how much I want it.
Victories give you confidence but can lead to over-confidence and carelessness. Everyone needs to face defeat as a reminder that we need to remain humble. This month I am glad to have been humbled in the hope that it will lead to success in the future.
I have my priorities. I now need to make sure that the things in my life are aligned to make it as easy as possible to accomplish.